I haven't blogged about the fact that I have lupus really; I might have touched on it but I've not gone into it in any detail.
There are two reasons for this:
1. Lupus hasn't affected my life day-to-day and so it doesn't occur to me to write about it
2. It seems like a depressing thing to blog about, so I don't
But things have changed!
Lupus is suddenly upfront and personal in my life again, in a way it hasn't since I was trying to conceive (TTC). It has been dormant over the past five years or so; ok there've been asthmatic episodes and flu and other mild lupus effects, but overall its been pretty dormant.
Now it's ugly self is coming out of hibernation.
Two months ago I started noticing my left hand becoming numb a lot, constantly heavy and my fingers twitching a lot. I thought nothing of it, thought it'd go away soon enough. Mike decided it was time to see a doctor and she was less dismissive than I hoped. Apparently I have carpal tunnel.
It's no biggy, lots of people have it, I'm just unlucky. That's what I tell myself and others. But I know it's not that simple. In reality this is the first time lupus has affected my joints and nerves; and I don't expect it will be the last.
So I'm wearing my wrist splint and "trying to rest" a bit - not in my nature at all! But mostly I'm hoping and praying for this to pass and for lupus to go back to it's hole.
In the meantime blogging will be inhibited - typing is a nightmare. But hey, there are worse things, right?